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Brain Injuries and Anxiety Attacks

“I can’t close my eyes. I will die.” She told me as her breathing grew shallow. “I can’t breathe. I am dying. Please tell my friends what happened.” “Look at me. Breathe with me. In through your nose. Out your mouth.” I attempted to calm her by speaking quietly and rhythmically. Slowly her breathing became deeper. “I just know I am going to die. What if I have a disease that is from another country and the cure is not in America yet? I don’t travel to other countries so I will die.” Again, I talked rationally to her hoping to ease her worry. She continued to tell me she was going to die. No matter the rationale I used, she continued to be convinced that come morning, she would be dead. No matter the number of times I told her I would keep her safe, she was adamant that she was dying. No matter what I did or said, she knew she was going to die. I would like to tell you that this is the beginning of a story I am writing. A piece of fiction. This is no piece of fiction. The anx

See you should never stop writing. You're so good.

It has been too long. Too long since I have written. Too long since I have run consistently. Too long since I have gone riding by myself. Too long since I have listened to that little voice inside of me. Throughout the last few months that little voice inside has been screaming at me. I turned up the noise in my head in response. “Personal things are going on. Things I don’t want to share. Things other people wouldn’t understand.” Instead, I ignored the urge to write, sat on the couch, and joined friends on ride. Tonight, I open the laptop and type out the whispers of my soul as I continue to transform into the woman I want to be. (Thank you, Cassidy, for the encouragement to start up again.) \Changes abound since my last blog post. It has been over a year since I have written on a consistent basis. Why did I stop writing? Was it because of the Hell a divorce brings? Was it when I stopped running and lost track of a part of me? Maybe it had something to do with falling for a separa