On October 27, I crossed the finish line of the Marine Corps
Marathon. I know many would like to hear all about it. Words would not do the
experience justice. There is no way to convey the emotions in the days leading
up to the big race. Time spent at Walter Reed Hospital with three very special
Wounded Warriors. Meeting the man that Sean helped save when he hit an IED.
Loneliness and fear the night before because of no one to celebrate with at the finish
line. The anticipation of the starting line. Running through the blue mile
reading every single one of the displayed names of men and women who have died in this
war. The tears that overtook me at mile 24. Woody’s voice playing in my head.
Crossing the finish line and feeling at the peace celebrating alone. (My celebrating came the next day with
my students.)
My students spend more time with me than anyone else. I kept
them informed of the entire marathon journey. They supported me with posters,
cards, and most importantly, their belief in me. They heard more about the
weekend of the race than anyone else. When it was time to celebrate my
accomplishment, they were the ones to celebrate with me.
In just a few days, I will turn 50. Once again, the
possibility of celebrating alone haunts me. And then I remember the finish
line. After running 26.2 miles, a Marine Corps band played and I danced. Alone.
And it was good. I am sure it comes as no surprise to anyone that I am a people
person. I get my energy from being with others. People of all ages and walks of
life. Laughing with them. Hearing their stories. Teaching them in a classroom.
Doing community service together. Eating together. Texting and talking on the
phone with them. My children, friends, and students are my life force. Yet, I
am learning that I make my own energy as well. Spending time riding invigorates
me and always puts me in a good mood. The wind in my face blows my anxieties
and stress away. Running puts me in a zone and quiets my mind. Dancing? Dancing
whether around the house or out in the club or even seat dancing in the car,
brings a smile that does not stop. Therefore, as 50 dawns upon me, I will be
dancing even if that means I do it alone at home. (Like that is going to
happen. NOT!)
Be watching for the location of the dance party. As they say
in Uganda, come on out and “SHAKE YOUR ASS!”
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