Letting go of the hate

Calling upon words to help me clear my head,

dispel the hate welling up inside.

Fractured thoughts swirling in my mind

as tears roll down my cheeks

I do not hate;

It is not what I am about.

Yet today, I find myself filled with so much ugliness

It hurts me inside.

It will be over soon;

I can do this on my own.

Yet even so, I wonder why I have so much revulsion

for I have found my voice.

He will have someone at his side

Prompting him on what is best.

Alone never seemed so scary, so daunting

Distrust of what will be.

Even as I ride the wave of the negative

I know I am powerful

knowing I can conquer anything

because of the positive energy that surrounds me.

And with that realization,

I take a deep breath.

Expend a few more tears.

And know it will be over soon.

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