The journey began with peace.
After days of agony,
over thinking,
uncertainty.
All came to an end with a simple
“I quit.”
Peace set in.
Less than a week later,
anxiety is overshadowing the peace.
My rock so far away
our relationship learns a new way ~
Facebook
Instant Messaging
Texting
Phone calls
Comfort no longer through human touch
now felt through the cold keys of a computer.
His voice on the other end of the phone
always upbeat and positive
knowing this will all work out
as I begin to question.
I lean on
friends in cyberland
sending words of encouragement
reading my writing.
Anticipating their words.
Many in awe of the path we are taking,
commenting on the strength and courage necessary to
jump off the edge.
Some days I wonder “Am I running away?”
from a difficult situation at school
from the transition of the change I knew was coming
from the packing of the house
from saying goodbye to friends
from the dog that will be saying goodbye to the world
from the stuff that we have accumulated
from life as a grown-up?
I am in limbo.
Doing what I can to stay strong.
Caught in a flurry of paperwork.
Trying to make something happen.
A job.
A place to live.
A car.
Growing impatient
not knowing how it will all end up
but trusting it will work out.
Incredible.
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